In a nutshell
Trip Start Nov 01, 2012
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I had just got used to the idea that I am living out of my backpack. I no longer had to concern myself with whether or not my hair was done or if I had the right aftershave on. It didnt matter that, I had no choice but to wear the same T shirt three days in a row. and yet in thailand I find myself wearing the same vest as everyone else, worrying about how good my tan is and whether or not I've lost weight!
I dont necessarily care about these small insignificant things in life however thailand is full of pretentious, shallow people who do and so I find myself conforming!
I went travelling to find myself and currently I'm an english man abroad....bad tattoo, sunburnt face, drinking chang beer at 10am
Am I happy about this??? Yes and no! Yes, I am so happy with the fact that I'm in an amazing place, meeting new people and enjoying every new experience and No because I was happy being me and not having to worry about what other people thought! It didn't matter because I'd probably never see them again, but here its different you know there are people judging you regardless of whether or not they have even talked to you!
Although I love the surroundings and I wouldn't choose to be in the UK. People like that make me feel unsure pf myself which then affects my encounters. I'd much rather be concerning myself with which type of fish swam past my face when snorkelling, or how the Thai make their food taste so delicious. I should be looking up at the thousands of star's strewn across the sky and wondering which ones are which. But no I find myself falling into that egotistical, selfconscious western attitude to life!
Ah well having a tan does make everyone feel better and magic mushrooms are supposed to be the best natural high ever ;) guess I had better just go with the flow until I find myself somewhere new : D
Realising that living on the beach isn't always going to be perfect
Over and out