Last night in England -> one more sleeps
Trip Start Jul 22, 2008
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It's 11.30, my family are all in bed, rather sensibly considering the fact that we're all leaving at 7 in the morning to take me to the airport, but i dont have a hope of getting any sleep. This is despite the 2 bottles of white wine I've been subtlely consuming since 7pm. (with help i might add). Im pretty sure im not drunk, but my typing may tell you otherwise.
Ive just started to write a detailed account of what ive been up to since i last wrote, but if im honest, it's only interesting to me, so i got rid of it. All i need to say is, to those of you who I've seen this last weekend, or in the couple of weeks before, you are my chosen family, i love you and i'll miss you.
Which brings me on to how im feeling tonight. Ive got all my packing done, and unpacking because it weighed too much, and repacking, and transferring of stuff into my hand luggage, and unpacking and repacking that and finally it all seems to weigh the right amount, and now i feel a bit lost.
I know exactly what i'd be saying if i was in one of your shoes talking to me, its word for word what you've all been telling me. I will have an amazing time, and whilst i will miss you all, its something i need to do. Doesn't mean im not terribly sad and frightfully scared though.
This is the biggest thing ive ever done in my life, and if im honest, im terrified of it.
Yes, in 48 hours when im with Casey in Melbourne, I'll read this and know how stupid i was being, and in 6 months time i'll laugh at this entry but right now i want to be brutally honest and say a big part of me doesnt want to do this!
Which is exactly why tomorrow morning Im going to get up, drive to Manchester airport and get on that plane. Im going to claim my armrest, put my a headphones on and forget about all of you for the period of 25 hours it takes to get there. I refuse to get upset, or scared, and when the second plane lands at Melbourne im going to march to claim my baggage (being very sweet and nice to the immigration officer) and then embrace my new temporary life.
You just watch me!