November 1, 2008

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November 1, 2008 my next part of this journey on Dominica.
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November 1, 2008 in Dominica
I am changing more than I ever anticipated or even wanted too. I started out the new month with a little of an emotional brake down. I awoke at one this morning not being able to sleep because of the heat and humidity. I turned on my computer to find it was not working. I had downloaded 8 videos that I had taken the day before at Calls, the school I teach at. We were celebrating Independence Day. Independence Day is this Monday November 3, 2008; I know I have been talking about it all month long but this country has been celebrating all month. I did not realize that I over loaded my computer! On top of that I had a flood in my home because of a pipe braking, which made me shut the water to the home off.
This country shuts down for Independence weekend. When I mean shut down, I mean everything, stores, gas stations, restaurants; what ever you can think of is shuts down for 3 days! I was short on water and nowhere to get fresh water. And no one to fix the problem until Wednesday. My mind started to shut down. I started to cry and could not hold back any of my emotions. I felt all-alone with no one to help me. I lost all faith in God and had nowhere to turn. I had forgotten everything I had; love of family, friends, and most importantly my God! By the time it was six am, I could not even think clearly. I tried to call my brother and thank God he answered on the first ring. I don't know what would have happen with in my mind if he did not answer!!!! My computer is my lifeline to everything that means anything to me. Just hearing his voice saved me from going completely mad. He help to settled me down and reminded me of what was important and what I had. Letting me know it was going to be all right. He was just a phone call away and that this too will pass. I know this does not seem like a big deal but when you are so far away from the one's you love and feel all alone it makes you look at things in a different way! I felt like a child, with no one around to help.
I started to read from Matthew 11: 25-30
At the time, Jesus said, ' I bless you, Father, Lord of heaven and of earth, for hiding these things from the learned and the clever and revealing them to mere children. Yes Father, for this is what it pleased you to do. Everything has been entrusted to me by my Father; and no one knows the Son except the Father, just as on one knows the Father except the Son and those to whom the Son chooses to reveal him.
'Come to me, all you who labour and are overburdened, and I will give you rest. Shoulder my yoke and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. Yes, my yoke is easy and my burden light.'
Today I was a child but could not hear. I hope this pain, which was a good pain, will help me to grow in the way I need to.

There's a song in every silence, seeking word and melody;
There's a dawn in every darkness, bringing hope to you and me.
From the past will come the future; what it holds, a mystery,
Unrevealed until its season, something God alone can see.


P. S. I have up-loaded some pictures that you may want to check out.

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Getting threw tuff times
Steven I am sure every person reading your blog and hearing your story of how things just seemed to be coming down all around you have experianced the same thing and gone threw the same emotions at one time or another. I am so proud of the way you tackled the situation and used your faith and family and friends to help you get threw tuff days such as you were going threw. I think this will be ONE of the many lessons you will learn about yourself and how strong you truly are with the out look and attitude you have. Champ and I think about you daily and wish nothing but better times and weather ahead for you. love ya Jon & Champ

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Lagging Logging In
Steve, I read your entry a while back but didn't post a comment. We've been communicating via Skype, so I've been lagging on logging in, however, it's really a different perspective viewing your fabulous photos and reading other comments on your blog. Keep up the good work. You're just getting started.
XO, Rick

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I am an American. But lost my way!
Am I an American?
Or can I be a Dominican
I am both, if I can
Where is my homeland?


I went into Roseau today to go and meet the Bishops secretary to renew my passport. The sun was shinning with a small breeze in the air. I was sitting in the back of the van on the right side facing the ocean. We were making our last turn around the mountains when Roseau came into view. There in the distance I saw the large cruise ship come into view sitting in to port, right downtown Roseau. It still was a twenty-minute drive until we arrived at the bus station. All the rest of the way I could not wait to arrive. You see I have been in Dominica for over three months and have little contact with other Americans. I had heard about the cruise ships and the tourist's season. The emotions I start to feel overwhelmed me.
Just getting into town was so different with all the traffic and people. What normally takes twenty-minutes, took over forty-five. The population of Roseau, I would guess, increased by over thirty percent.
When I stepped out of the van, fellow Americans immediately surrounded me. This feeling I was going through cannot be explained. I felt part of something I had not realized I had lost. At that moment I just wanted to grab and huge the first person within reach and not let go. I keep walking closer and closer to the port were the ship was docked. But then my feeling started to change, slowly but with not understanding what I was going through, I went deeper and deeper into the crowded. My mind started spilling over into emotions that I have never experienced before. I stopped right in front of the ship and realized that I was not one of them. Even through I am an American and we spoke the same English, I was not one of them. I was thinking, is it me or is it them. I just stood there for over half an hour not knowing what I was feeling or what to do with myself. I felt like I was at the Zoo and sitting on a bench watching all the animals in the cages. Then I asked myself, who was in the cage, them or me. I started to feel all alone and lost within my own body. Who was I, were am I and how can this be. For a person to go into culture shock that fast is something that just stunned and overwhelmed me.
I had changed or have they. Was this good or bad? Why was I feeling this and would or could it ever go away.
I walked along the port and went to Fort Young Hotel where I always go to have lunch when I was in town. There at the bar, sitting and trying to understand my feelings I wanted to start to cry. I was not a Dominican nor was I an American. I wanted to just run away from the whole downtown area. I did not even stay to eat, just one drink and left. I started to walk away from the port up the hill about half a mile to this park. When I entered the park I was in such an emotional state all I could do was find the nearest tree and just sit. Not moving for over an hour. When I got up I almost ran back to the bus station and boarded the next van out of town. I needed to run from what I do not know. Thinking of why was just too much for my brain. But sitting in a van full of Dominicans and be different did not help.
I arrived back in Portsmouth still in a state of sock. I went right home and went right to bed. I had to stop my mine from thinking. I NEEDED TO SLEEP!

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Driving in Dominica
Well, I did it. I took the car out for a drive. The roads in Dominica are extremely narrow and in very bad condition. On top of that they drive on the opposite side of the road. I received my driver's license on Friday. This may not seem like a big deal, but let me assure you driving in this country is nothing like driving anywhere else. You pass other cars with only inches to spare, while going 40 or 50 miles an hour. When you are a passenger in a car you never put your hand out the window at anytime. All the cars on the road have there mirror on the right side, scratched or completely gone because the car they are passing will come so close to it will damage or destroyed it. I plan to go to Ross College, which is about eight miles from town tomorrow. I would like to join their gym. If it is possible I would like to go after school everyday. Driving is something I have been putting off for over three months and felt that I needed to take the next step in this adventure. I am really energized about being able to get around the island and becoming more settled in my new life as a Dominican. Yes I know I am really an American but for the next year I am both. I already have a day planned this coming Saturday with a new friend, Hillary. I am going to drive us to the other side of the island to a beach. From what I understand, the nicest one on the island. I will keep you all up-dated on my adventures and my driving. I hope all is well with all of you.
I just want to say thanks for all the e-mails. You have no idea what they mean to me. I come home everyday and go right to my computer to see if anyone has written me a e-mail. God Bless you all.

Steve

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Change > Will I or Should I
if you can change.
would you change?
would you change the way you look?
would you change the way you think?
would you change the way you act?
would you change it for someone?
if you can change?
would you change?
if you do,
it might change the way you think,
it might change the love you have.
it might change your heart,
it might change you.
so...
would you change?
if you can change?

This has been such a life changing time for me. So many good things have happen. It has not been easy, to say the least. But this is what I signed up for. I am trying to understand everything, but understanding is not what I always should depend on. So I will walk slowly down this path and just know change is always part of my life. If you are in the middle of change and cannot understand, please don't think the worst, just try to walk leisurely and breath. Breathing is part of life as much as change is!
Today my friend I am living my life the best that I can and to be totally open to change. It feels good; you may want to try it.
Steve

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Change we will...
This is but a very brief excerpt of something I received from my cousin a few days ago - I'll send the entire story by private email, it brought me to tears when I read it. When I read this excerpt it reminded me of you and your journey there in Dominica, along with the speed bumps, potholes, and too the rainbows you've encountered. The Brother Mikes, the Wesleys, the Ms. Princes and countless others that have crossed your path, and ours through you, brings us yet one step closer to enlightenment and understanding of each other.

The excerpt:
'Life is so complicated, the hustle and bustle of everyday traumas can make us lose focus about what is truly important or what is only a momentary setback or crisis.

This week, be sure to give your loved ones an extra hug, and by all means, take a moment... if only it's 10 seconds, to stop and smell the roses.

May God Bless everyone who receives this! There are NO coincidences!

Everything that happens to us happens for a reason. Never brush aside anyone as insignificant. Who knows what they can teach us?'

Steve, we may never know what lessons God is teaching us through His selection of souls He places on our path of live - we just know we'll be better for it. He has a purpose for each of His children. We're all so very proud of you!

Love,
Ed and Jay

16palms
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Change we will...
This is but a very brief excerpt of something I received from my cousin a few days ago - I'll send the entire story by private email, it brought me to tears when I read it. When I read this excerpt it reminded me of you and your journey there in Dominica, along with the speed bumps, potholes, and too the rainbows you've encountered. The Brother Mikes, the Wesleys, the Ms. Princes and countless others that have crossed your path, and ours through you, brings us yet one step closer to enlightenment and understanding of each other.

The excerpt:
'Life is so complicated, the hustle and bustle of everyday traumas can make us lose focus about what is truly important or what is only a momentary setback or crisis.

This week, be sure to give your loved ones an extra hug, and by all means, take a moment... if only it's 10 seconds, to stop and smell the roses.

May God Bless everyone who receives this! There are NO coincidences!

Everything that happens to us happens for a reason. Never brush aside anyone as insignificant. Who knows what they can teach us?'

Steve, we may never know what lessons God is teaching us through His selection of souls He places on our path of life - we just know we'll be better for it. He has a purpose for each of His children. We're all so very proud of you!

Love,
Ed and Jay

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Giving Thanks
This is a day to give gratitude. I am more person who has some much to be thankful for. My sister Pat is the foundation, which holds my family together. For when I look back on all the most difficult times I have been through, it is she I always call first. I remember when I had to close my company and need someone to go with me to the lawyer's office to begin the process; it was her that stood by my side. On the way home it was Pat that put me at peace and told me everything was going to work out. It was the end of my world and it was she that held me up. She has been a sister, mother, friend but most importantly my true guardian angel. I don't always want to hear what she has to say, but speak she will. For it is always in my best interest. My brother Jon is my best friend. He always has my back. There has never been a corner I have turned, were it is he that was there ready to hold my hand. I was in a train station in Germany and almost got arrested; it was he that came to my defense. No man could ask for a better brother, friend, business partner and most importantly my companion.
Then there is my other half. MY TWIN. We are one person, one heart, far beyond sister and brother or friends. We double dated on our senior ball; we have always had the same friends. She has stood by me through thick and thin. I could never be real without her. Then there is my little brother. Most brothers go through life with many memories of fighting and struggles. Well you may not believe me when I tell you; Bill and I have never had a fight that I can remember. He and Jane had one that ended up with a broken window and a cut on his hand. But if we have had one, I don't remember. That is because Bill has always taken my side and let me be the one to have my way. He is so much more than a brother or friend, like Pat he is my guardian angel.
I too would like just to point out my other brothers and sister. Jay, Edward, Bob, Bob, Paul, Ricky and little sis Sue. I will miss each one of you on this day! Then I could not end this without talking about a close friend. Chris V. has been a true and loyal friend who I owe so much thanks to. He has written me and made me feel safe so many times in the last 4 months. Thanks Chris!!
My all of my family and friends have a safe and beautiful Thanksgiving Day. My Thoughts and prayers are with all of you.

Your Brother & Friend
Steve

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A lifetime experience
Well, in one week I go home. I have decided not to return to Dominica after the holidays. This decision was not made without due consideration. There are many reasons as to why I have come to this conclusion, one being that I am homesick. I am so fortunate to have such a large, loving and close set of friends to come home to. There is part of me that would have loved to complete the entire year, but coming and trying is something I do not regret. I have met so many people that have been so kind in greeting me with open arms. This has been a life changing experience that I will never forget. I leave with a bit of sadness and a lot of pride within myself for trying. I hope I have learned more about myself and what and where I would like to go from here.
I would like to mention a few friends that have helped me in this journey. First, and foremost, are my brothers, Jon and Will, I am so grateful for all our conversions and your words of encouragement. Chris V., I would like you to know how important it was for me to come home every night during that first month, looking forward to reading your e-mails. The first thing that comes to my mind is 'gratified'. Ricky, without your help and support I could not have stayed this long. Thanks my friend and my brother. Ed, Jay, Bob and Bob you guys made me laugh when I desired it the most. I would see you guys on line and it would change my outlook even before I had a chance to talk to you.
I would also like to thank the Christian Brothers for giving me this opportunity. You will always be in my thoughts and prayers. I have sent a letter to the ones here on Dominica, to whom I owe so much. I am so blessed, and grateful to have met them, and will remember them fondly for the rest of my life.
Last, I would like to thank everyone that has encouraged, and supported, me during this once in a lifetime experience. I have learned just how large my family really is. Thank you and God bless you.

I am who I am
I'll be who I will be
I will follow this path
I will unlock the next door with my key
Steve

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