Doi Suthep- Part III: Being Hungry

Trip Start Dec 29, 2007
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Trip End Mar 10, 2008


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Sunday, January 27, 2008

The meals at Wat Phra That Doi Suthep are simple but good.  At 6:30 a.m., we have breakfast, which usually consists of some flat or transparent noodles in broth with lots of green vegetables.  Lunch, which is served at 11:00 a.m., is centered around sticky rice, which is a Northern Thai staple, along with a changing variety of side items, including curries (the fresh coconut curry is my favorite), vegetables, spring rolls, and other items.  The menu is mostly vegan, but occasionally there are eggs, chicken, or pork for the meat-eaters.  We get dessert after both meals, which is always fresh fruit- oranges, watermelon, pineapple, or apples.  Nothing resembling chocolate or containing sugar.

Once a week, for no apparent reason, the kitchen whips up some french fries for lunch, with a bowl of ketchup (Homer: "Mmmmm.....french fries with ketchup.  Sound of drooling....").  You never know when it's coming, so it's always the highlight of my digestive day.

We eat outside on the front porch of the meditation hall, overlooking the garden and the morning sunrise.  Eating, like everything else, is done in silence, with the exception of the Pali prayer for alms food that we chant at lunchtime.

While the meals are tasty, food here is for the sole purpose of fulfilling the holy life.  We eat not for enjoyment or for distraction or to flatter form, but simply to provide us with the caloric intake necessary to sustain a vigorous day of meditation.  As such, no solid food is consumed after noon on any day.  If you're counting, that means we go nineteen hours between meals.  You can have water and hot tea to your heart's content, and they even have a small stash of hot chocolate that becomes a pre-bedtime ritual for me.

Given the paucity of solid food, one develops certain strategies designed to keep hunger at bay.

1) Eat Small Portions- This advice goes against your stomach's conventional wisdom, and your first instinct is to cram three meals worth of food into two.  The food is served buffet-style, so there's nothing to stop you from getting seconds or thirds.  But eating big meals only makes you feel full and bloated, and tells your stomach to expect a big dinner, which just makes it worse later in the day.

2) Linger Around Meals- Get to meals a few minutes early, chew as slowly and deliberatively as possible, pause between bites, and stay seated for five or ten minutes after you eat.  This actually helps you to eat less while still feeling full, and you're able to eat with more mindfulness.

3) Give Thanks- We chant before lunch, and while I'm not sure why breakfast isn't prayer-worthy, I pause to express my gratitude nonetheless.  It's common sense to be grateful for something that's doesn't happen very often.  Kind of like sex in high school.  Or so I hear.  So I give thanks and give thanks again.

4) No Strenuous Exercise- During my first few days, I entertained the idea that my time at Doi Suthep could also be a bit of a diet bootcamp, so I took long hikes and did sit-ups and push-ups.  Big mistake!  Because you're not actually taking in enough calories (about 1,200 a day, I estimate) to sustain a real workout regime.  So exercise consists of slow, meandering walks and stretching.

5) Drink Lots of Fluids- I've always been a big water drinker, but H20 is now my best friend.  I drink five or six liters a day, plus several cups of lemongrass and other assorted herbal teas.  It's always available, makes you feel full when you're not, and has the added benefit of extra trips to the bathroom, which creates another "activity" in a long day.  And I've got nothing but time.

Despite my best efforts to delay it, to slake it, to pacify it, hunger eventually shows up.  And he's pretty pissed.  I have the kind of hunger that comes on in an instant and completely overwhelms me.  In a way, it's a natural biological instinct, since we need food for survival, but over the years, we've perverted the meaning of hunger (those of you who've visited a third-world country know what I mean).

Usually, when I'm hungry, I'm close enough to my refrigerator or a Royal Farms to make it go away.  The first time that hunger hit me at Doi Suthep, I was a little panicked.  There are a bunch of food stands for the tourists located just below the temple.  A week into my meditation, we all took a "field trip" there to get food for the monks to give them the next morning during their alms round.  We went during what would be dinnertime, which I thought was particularly cruel.  "Hey," I thought, "as long as we're at it, why don't we go to a strip club, order a beer we can't drink, and watch other guys get lap dances!"  Even though I knew salvation in the form of fried bananas and coconut shakes was just a few hundred meters away, I knew I wasn't going to break a meditation precept.

I mulled over other options.  In my weakened condition, there was no way I was going to be able to shimmy my way up the mango tree in the garden.  I scoured through my backpack to see if I might have overlooked a stray granola bar.  Natch.  I thought about threatening a monk by strangling him with his saffron robe.  Double natch.

So, finally, it occurred to me that I wasn't going to die.  It was just hunger, and I had enough body fat and then some to miss more than a few meals.  So, I sat down on a bench in the middle of the meditation garden - a public place was better, I thought, just in case I passed out or had some sort of grease-withdrawal seizure - and just sat with my hunger.

It starts with my stomach growling, but quickly spreads to the rest of my body in what feels like spasmodic shaking.  The sweat begins to form on my brow and back and the panic sinks in again.  A sharp headache comes on from behind my right eye.  I stay still, allowing myself to feel the hunger in my body, and accepting how my mind is interpreting the feelings.  I breathe mindfully.  I wait.

And in about twenty minutes (seems like years), the hunger realizes I'm not paying attention to it anymore, so it slowly slinks away.  The sweating stops, the shaking subsides, and I'm left sitting on the bench with a dull ache in my head and slow churn in my stomach.

And that's what it's like - for me, at least - to be with hunger.   I suppose that's what it's like with all cravings, even those that aren't biologically-based.  Everything in life comes and goes, passes and changes, and hunger is no different.  By inviting hunger in and experiencing it fully, it wasn't scary anymore and I could deal with it, rather than fighting or succumbing to it.  This is the core of mindfulness, I thought to myself.  A friendly acknowledgment of thoughts, feelings, and bodily sensations that are constantly cycling through our existence.

Still, I could really go for an Attman's hot corned beef sandwich on rye with mustard and some Berger's cookies.

Coming Soon: Part IV: Silence
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Comments

rjhaddad
rjhaddad on

Good news for the soul (and stomach)
Steve,

I like the good vibes and the wisdom. Keep them flowing to us westerners. I especially enjoyed your comments on eating -- something I need to focus on.

Glad your trip is turning out the way you planned. We enjoy reading your updates.

Ron (and Pat)

janethaddad
janethaddad on

Hunger vs. silence
Your writing is fabulous. As for me I could probably learn to deal with the hunger but the silence is beyond me (I think) - I even talk in my sleep. Love you, Mommo

kjspac
kjspac on

Hungry myself
Steve,

I agree with Mommo, your writing is fabulous and I think you missed your calling as writer. Hey wait, you're not employed so maybe applying for journalism positions when you return is an option? :) I am not kidding, I think you missed your calling and never knew you were such a good writer.

So you are still at your meditation program/school? I thought you were finished? Have a great day!

Jill

oriolesman
oriolesman on

She's My Mom...
....so she's legally obligated to say nice things about me. But thanks for the compliment!

No, I've finished the meditation program (at least for now) but since I didn't have email when I was there, I'm forced to tell the story in 'flashbacks'. I'll be posting some real-time entries soon as well.

Hope you're well!!!

rhaddad
rhaddad on

Interesting and Fun Reading
Steve, we're enjoying the story, and you DO write extremely well. - Dad and Val

myajune
myajune on

Hunger Battle
So strong willed and focused. I would have been caught sneaking down to the food stands in the middle of the night.
I concur with everyone on your writing ability. It's
fabulous! Please keep it coming.....Trace

kristen77
kristen77 on

Thanks....
Now I am STARVING just thinking about hunger! ha! And I agree, you really are an excellent writer and extremely captivating! I do think you should publish a Memoir of this experience - I would be all over. Try to journal and recall as much of this terrific detail as possible, because you HAVE to print this!!!!

kristen77
kristen77 on

And yes...
That is MOI in SEATTLE!!!!!

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