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  Amsterdam, North Holland, Netherlands
Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Eight days have passed in Amsterdam, eight nights of dreaming I was still in South Africa, of waking up wondering what I would be doing today, of confusion when I opened my eyes and found myself back home.

This time it was harder to say goodbye and I don't believe I really can, I shall carry the place with me, under my skin, in my heart - it has become part of me. 
An experience that has changed me, that has left its mark in unforeseen ways.
And harder because I know I wont be going back.
South Africa will always pull at my heart strings but I must break away and find new horizons, new faces. A promise I made to myself.

These past months felt different than my earlier visits. Maybe the honeymoon phase is over, I wasn't constantly amused and surprised by what I saw, I was getting to know the ways and traits of the country. 
Less excited, more insight. Always curious. Things that had  puzzled me, I began to understand, and things that once amused me could bother me now. 
So no, not all sunsets and waterfalls. It was getting familiar, warts and all, and I effortlessly seemed to fit in. 
I noticed I took less photos, either I already had them or maybe because it felt like I lived there and didn't feel the need to.
That's got to be a sign it's time to move on :)

I've been going through the photos I took, to add on to the entries here. And I know I was there just a week ago, and I know I'm still there in my dreams, but I look and I see memories. I wish they weren't that yet, too soon to smile and remember, but you can't stand still in time and you can't live a parallel life.
They also make me realise how little I have managed to write, how haphazardly I mentioned this or that, how many stories still to tell.

Meant to tell, and maybe I will yet. Not today, not tomorrow - life in Amsterdam is gradually taking over, lots to catch up with and it will soon be time to go to France. 
I'm in transition I guess, an unsettled mind, a restless soul - but you'll probably find me here again, sooner or later.
 
Who knows what adventures lie ahead, far, far away or just around the corner. The very thought makes my heart beat faster and that in itself is such a wonderful feeling, anything can happen, imagine that, anything........ 



ps. Please have a look at the pictures I added - took me ages. Starting from the       Sabati - Cintsa entry.


 

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