Mountain talk
Trip Start
Sep 13, 2011
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Trip End
Sep 14, 2012
Suncheon, South Jeolla, Korea Rep.
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Today I was struggling to get myself out of bed as I had woken at 5am, which is becoming a bit of an unwelcome regular occurrence during the week. You know how it works too, as soon as you should be getting up your suddenly comfortable again and could fall back to sleep. Anyway, I kicked my butt out of bed and went for my walk with God.
This morning it was drizzling a bit and I normally walk looking straight ahead towards the goal. Part of the walk is a really steep incline and regardless of how often I take this walk I always struggle and get out of breath. I find it hard, but I am looking towards the end and sometimes it seems so far away, I am like right - I can see yoooou... you seem like your moving away...stop moving, stop moving!! Others I am so deep in conversation with God and have that bit more energy that it seems an easier walk.
This morning I was a bit grumpy and as it was drizzling I had my head down with my hat on and staring at the floor not knowing where the end was, or where I was heading and it felt easier. It felt easier to just keep going and not know where I was or how far was left, literally working it out based on my legs and loss of breath.
It made me realise that when I looked up I still had so far to go and I was a bit disappointed but I was hoping I would eventually reach my goal and it would be an easy decline down again to a very cosy room with a hot cuppa coffee waiting to be poured.
I'm not the greatest at explaining things but this made me think even more about my life and my journey with God.
Some mornings I really can not be bothered to get up out and walk and take this time to talk to God and thank Him for all I have and pray for others and my day. Sometimes the walk is really hard, the end seems so far away and it is always a struggle to get there. Some days more than others, but I know that I will get there and I will have something so worth it at the end. I have started my day walking with God and keeping others in my prayers. I then have a more encouraged start to my day. The days I am deep in conversation with God and so thankful my walk is easier and the end always seems closer.
My journey here in Korea in just these 3 months has been so tough, some days have been AMAZING and others I have wondered why on earth I am here, am I crazy? Go home,run, leave go now!! Also, have I done something wrong, since my arrival so many people have left - wonder if I smell funny? Always doubting myself, always beating myself up for being human and struggling with my walk with God.
Anyway... regardless, my journey starts today and 'This is the day that the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it!!'
Our walks sometimes seem so tough and it's okay, we can stop and catch our breath, we can carry on because at the end there is something so great waiting for us. Continue the walk, and it will get easier... If we aren't looking where we are going we feel like it's okay we are in control but we are so uncertain, it may feel better in the short term but never looking towards the horizon is a walk without a goal...when we walk closely and connected to God the walk is easier, we are not drifting from or fighting the walk with Him.
Praise be to God.
Comments
I loved this because it was so honest and easy to relate to. Maybe your journey is hard sometimes but look how much you're growing from it already, I'm really proud of you and really lucky to call you a friend! Keep walking ^_^ xxx