Something to Chew On
Trip Start Oct 09, 2007
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February 18, 2009
I was telling Baba this afternoon that I had never realized before yesterday that our human suffering is an illusion. Now that has dawned on me with the power of revelation. Yes, his teachings had helped me years ago to pierce the veil of the mind as a weaver of illusions ... but our suffering, my own suffering, has always seemed so frighteningly real, so deep, so stubborn, so tenacious, so damning and damaging and dangerous, so prevalent and overwhelming, that it couldn't possibly be anything but real to me.
He has said that suffering is not real many times, but the reality just wasn't available to me. I couldn't believe it until I had actually seen and experienced the transience of my own life's suffering, and actually experienced it dissolving into nothingness, like it did yesterday, in the face of the larger reality of the Grace and the good that had been there all along.
"Is this why we have to go through our karma?" I asked him. "Is it because hearing it, thinking about it, isn't enough?"
"That is exactly why." He responded. "We don't know it. It is just a concept of the mind, one-dimensional, someone else's knowing, a borrowed shadow of knowing. It is not part of us until we have actually experienced it in our own lives. Consciousness arises from experience. Consciousness is born out of experience."
"But it's not important that you had this revelation yesterday," Baba said. "What is important is that you chew on it. You need to chew and chew and chew on the truth of it until it becomes part of your blood and bone.
"This is the core, the very heart of all that has kept you locked in suffering. It is a beginning, an opening, it's true. But you need to read and reread and reread what you wrote in your journal about it every day. Every day. You need to sit with the new reality. You need to work and work and work with the truth of it, every day. You have to come back to it, see it again, take it in a little deeper every day, turn it over again and again in your mind and heart until it becomes part of every cell of your body, until it imbues every thought, every perception.
"This could change absolutely everything about your life. But it will only happen if you chew on it.
"It happens too often that we have these flashes of insight. They have so much potential to transform our lives. But they are just a seed. They don't matter an iota in themselves. The seed has to sprout. It has to be nourished. It needs our time and attention. It has to become a process. Without our time and attention, however significant something like this might seem at the time, it will sift to the bottom of our consciousness in the flood of our day to day lives. It will get lost in the plethora of our every day comings and goings and doing. We have to chew on it, so it can be fully digested, completely assimilated.
"Don't neglect that process with something as important as this,"