Bomb threats & breakups: beginnings of a roadtrip

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Tuesday, May 26, 2009

hello, hello. i am wishing i had not drank so much coffee at ken's this morning. but sitting there with jason on this damp hilo morning, it felt like the only soul-soother.
another comfort i am finding is in my strong will for the right path.
i chose to walk away from someone today, which was hard.
nevertheless i am certain in my decision to cast out alone.
thinking about myself a year ago really puts this decision in perspective as well. a year ago, i would cling to the anger and unstability found in a lover like a baby to a breast. i would hide myself in the layers of miscommunication, shower myself in the storm of arguments and impending train wrecks. i would fall deeply without self-respect, all the while knowing better. as i sit here now, it feels undescribably amazing to be rid of all that. to have a greater sense of what is right for me than ever before. to walk away with love, looking forward and back. today was a true test that i am not who i used to be and that is the greatest reward of all.

so looking forward, i am about to embark on my last big island road trip. sad but true! so tentative plans are to drive south tomorrow, camping at ho'okena beach park (alone but the park is always full of people, so i feel safe). Lots of hiking and pondering and swimming in the clear blue ocean of kona side. Then go to the hostel in kailua and kick it with aki and crew for two nights. Cruise to maklawena and a few more beaches. Also hike into pololu

(this amazing valley above hawi where the fresh mountain water streams meet the ocean... i once camped there with richard and brittany on a dark and stormy night. The walk down was treacherously steep and muddy and it rained us out all night, poor britt got it the worst. But while they were sleeping, whales were in the ocean talking. Their voices echoed loud off the mountain walls. Filling the valley with these undescribable alien sounds, I was the only person to experience it. Tentatively I stuck my head out of the tent and into the cold rain, just to listen to their conversations. I could not understand what they were saying, but I felt their power vibrating throughout the forest.)

And then meet up with jason, hike into waipio and camp down there for a night. We both have never been there before, and he's lived on island for years! Very exciting. Drive home, and focus on upcoming departure for tokyo... in 9 days!!!

so i would like to also accomplish some more work in the area, like cleaning out under my cabin at adele's.. moving extra wood and such out, picking out sensitive grass and bamboo stumps around the cabin so i can walk barefoot and everyone else that lives there after me, i want to plant lots and lots of flowers at jason's, and i want to help inga start her garden, give her some lemongrass, taro, coco's, etc..

Lots on my mind to do in nine days, but I am a determined young woman!

I also really miss brittany and im a dork, so i'm gonna collage some awesome memories into this blog too.

peace and love.

p.s. is traveling to south korea still a good idea?
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