What can i say

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Trip End Aug 19, 2007


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Saturday, August 18, 2007

Dearly beloved,

I have recieved a number of Emails lately from some very precious friends, and i havent had yet the time or emotional space to respond.

So dont think I dont think of you and love you, its just that ive been through so much lately, and even now still feel confused.

Such a blizzard of emotions, goodbyes, new beginnings, reunions with old skeletons..

Yeah, as you see on the map thing, im back in Israel.  for the time being.

I had the craziest time since deciding i leave, and making the preperations within less than 2 weeks.

And today, i walked up the stairs in my parents place towards the living room and thinking:
"wow, im actually here"

I think im having some post-return depression thing,
and i think i should not stay too much at my parents place.

Baby-steps, a good friend once told me.
Take it slow, its not easy, and youre no superman.

I think thats a big problem of mine, i think im superman - i think i can save everyone.

But superman gets depressed when he realizes that most of his close ones dont wanna be saved.
They dont even know that they are swimming in shit.

And if he tells them they are - theyll just hate him for it.

So better just leave them to swim in their shit, and throw in a rubber duck of unconditional love.

Unconditional love.
I want some of that.


And its not me facing only my close ones in Israel,
it goes hand in hand with the place itself, the whole situation.
The whole damn complicated situation.

BUT ---

I must always remember and give thanks for the positive.

GOOD sun, GOOD hearted people.. and GOOD GOOD food..
mmm... : P

The sea has the perfect temprature  - its crazy.
You can just sit inside all day long, with a nice big juicy watermelon.

So,
the question remains : "am i back home?"

One things for sure - im not BACK anywhere.
too much has changed,
and as much as i would like it to be - nothing will ever be the same again.

Am i home ? - a good friend once told me HOME is a state of mind.
So i guess i come and go from home..

But i think this marks the end of the first part of the chronicles of Omris traveling,
so i close this chapter with a little smile hiding a big secret, and a tear of joy in the corner of my eye.

And i send you all 34 tons of purified mediterenean love :)

p.s. - ill post soon a new chapter telling of my inner voyages..
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shalummmmmmm
ahoy brother,well it's a relief that you mention you think and love us even when you don't write back,cos' i was starting to.....just kidding don't worry about it i know and i'm sure that all the other magic people that you mentioned can feel you in their heart even without words...sometime you need to be in peace dealing with your own emotions before to be able to share them!I know the feeling,but also know that even if it's to moan or empty your bag I am all ears!that what real friends are for...
But being home realy you know is to find peace wherever you go,even if it's to walk back on your foot print meeting old skeleton swimming in their old same old shit,touch their pool with your soul and make it look like gold...I felt the same when I came back from asia trying to tell all my friends to quit everything,to go wild and explore what I discover...the world!Good friends of mine made me understand that for some people real happiness somehow is confort ,security,and boring routine...It's hard to believe but it needs to be respected...
the roads of your country are precious too,it's not an old painting that became black and white with time!no, the colors are still untouch,same vibrant charm,beautiful sunset and the same moon that was above you when you where in your adventure....it's just an other challenge,their for you to learn....an other aspect of you,your mind and soul in your life that began....embrace it and enjoy it!
dance with your guitar like you would dance elsewhere,then you'll realise that their is no difference...just an other adventure in an other place until the next to come....hopefully will meet singing in da street! ALL YOU NEED IS LOVE!!
ok gotta go lots of hugues and light....
take care of yourself hermano....embrace the god and the goddess which are your parents on this life,thanks them for me to have create you,and your guitare (undirectly :o)
shalum
margaux

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