It's Not Hillsong, but I Met With the Lord
Trip Start Mar 27, 2009
16Trip End Apr 11, 2009
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Where I stayed
Campbelltown Church of Christ, March 29, 2009, Campbelltown, Australia
There are many things Lord, that you can not do in me when I am sitting safe in harbor. You and I have to go out on the water, journey together, and face the storms of life. It is in these times that the truth of your word seems to ignite and spread within me. The reality that you will do what you say and that your promises ring true for me, pour forth as we face the journey of life. I am safe not because the storm is over, or the seas are calm, I am safe because you are in control of me, the storm, and everyone involved. No part of it is out of your divine plan, no part of it is unnecessary. As we journey together I see You Lord for who you really are, not who I want you to be. Your character shines forth and I am able to see glimpses of You, instead of the vicious storm which surrounds me. You peel back layer after layer of Yourself and I am blessed to see that each new layer of You is what you long to see in me. The journey, the storm, they are your tools to bring glory, reliance on You, and trust in Your power which has promised to sustain me.
Lord, when you feel far away I have taken my eyes off of you and look only at the pain and turmoil of the storm which surrounds me. I call out to you again and again, not looking to know you more, but relief from the tragedy which has encompassed my heart. I see relief not in your abiding care, but instead in circumstances changing as I desire. It is then that Psalms 22:24 becomes clear, You have not hidden your face from me, you are listening and longing for me to put it all in perspective. Instead of calling out and shouting to this ceiling which seems to block me from you, allow that ceiling to become my foundation, my floor. I then can stand on the truth of who you are, rather than the challenge of reaching you.
I have been asked, what happens when my faith is ambushed? What is so valuable to me that it's loss could cause me to lose my grip on Christ? Lord, I pray the answer is nothing! Absolutely nothing can allow Satan to confuse me into thinking that circumstance, tragedy, and despair are worthy of turning my back on You and Your truth. In the midst of these attacks I am able to prove who I really am because I trust in You. Who you are does not change, your character can be trusted and will sustain me. So Satan asks me, will I worship a God who has allowed tragedy in my life? I shout back with everything in me, I WILL WORSHIP HIM EVEN MORE!
I have no doubt that the God of this amazing universe can be trusted with my life. I am eager to see what He is going to do with me, yet I am thrilled with all He is already doing. He has not allowed my husband to come back to me, but He has been my husband. He has not taken away the pain of losing the man I love, but He has shown me that in the pain comes lessons I could have never learned without them. He has not removed the thorn in my side, but with the piercing I am reminded of the goal. My goal is not in seeing Charlie come home, it is not in being an incredible wife to the man I love, it is looking like Christ in everything I do. Maybe then...I'll be a good wife, my husband can see Christ in me, and he can run to the precious arms of his Savior. More importantly though, maybe then my Lord will be glorified.
Today someone asked me, if I were on my death bed what would I say to my friends and family? My response...live life to the max, but live it for the Lord. Soak up every moment with Him and reach out to every person you can. Live in Christ, be Christ in everything you do, you will not be disappointed. You may not understand Him, but you will be satisfied. This is my prayer for me, this is my prayer for you.
May you be satisfied today.